JabberJuls

I think my siblings and mom went insane.
Wow… I lose my Father to discover my siblings and mother resent the love my father had for me. Don’t understand why all these years they pretended to care about me and yet hated my guts.

I’m sorry my Fathers love for me caused all you siblings such pain. I pray you all are able to unite as you so desire with me out of this family.

You hear of crazy things said after funerals but here’s what was said to me:

1. Well Julie, you know you’ve been Dad’s favorite and we felt our kids were neglected by mom & dad for your sons. Mom even agrees.

2. Well Julie you know since childhood you’ve been number one and now you need to honor Mom’s wishes. Apparently those wishes now are to be conned by the sibilings to now disregard me as if I’m less valuable than friends & non-family and deserve to be treated as non-family.

3. Ohh so much more nonsense directed from jealousy/hatred
Not knowing of anything I’ve done to harm my siblings, but only love my parents and being loved in return. I’m just blown away and find myself angry at the horrible allegations against my father loving them less. I recall several nights my father sharing how he felt rejected by my siblings and hurt by them, but he treasured any moment they chose to be with him. Taking pictures for memories of it. He’d always say to Mom when she missed them to just pursue them if you want them. Mom & Dad shared they realized life was too short & takes us in different directions, so enjoy the ones that pursue you. Enjoy the moments the Lord blesses you with.

Wow… this is not the mother I’ve known. Apparently our loving family was just a fantasy I had only held. Lord, please help mom and the siblings during this time. Even though they feel I’m the problem of their lives Lord,I give this hurt to you and gracefully move on in my life so they can go forward with attaining the relationship with Mom they need & desire.

Sorry Robin, Wendy, David & Mark that you feel this way. Your thinking is twisted, In my observation of what’s going on. Blaming me for your anger at Dad and now with Mom going along with your isolation manipulation towards me as a sister, I am unable to help Dad & Mom fulfill their wishes. Realizing where I stand with all of you, I will gracefully remove myself from this family for you all to receive the love you need from mom and to protect my family from further torment. Take care of her as she desires. These thoughts are disturbing and difficult to face when I never knew such underlying hatred for me has been there all this time. I guess hurting me now, as if I’m no one, for all these years of hidden pain is your only solution. I have no choice but to let go of you all and just pray. Lord I give this family to you. In Jesus name. I do not accept the blame or shame being put on my Father.

Be with Mom Jesus–for I can’t be there for her–she desires me to endure this torment without responding in deep anger for this behavior. I am appalled and can’t guarantee a peaceful response to the events that have surfaced. It’s wrong. Dear Lord this is in your hands the best place for it.