Ok so believing the nurse can’t get the information even though this was stat…Now What? Symptoms are still there. I have to give the nurse a hand for at least taking the initiative to get a doctor to order me some antibiotics bless her heart…

Hopefully that will do and all will be well. I love living in denial that there is nothing wrong with my body… don’t you.

Guess you need to know someone in High Places to actually find results to problems. BS is fed to people so often they think everyone will believe what they say. Kinda funny how ER stats miraculously don’t take 3 weeks for results. go figure.

Options: Go to ER and pay another outrageous copay for the same outcome as urgent care. Well maybe, just maybe, they’d get the CT results. Or to just be sent back to my doctor to try to do the Jedi Mind Trick hand swing on me by saying, ” there’s nothing wrong with you, you aren’t having those symptoms, even tho your wbc and rbc are higher than the standards, and your symptoms are overwhelmingly painful. I’m sooo sorry. Nothing we can do.” but this visit and the 5 more I’ll set up for you costs $$$$.

Alternative: just friggin’ be in pain, bleed for no reason, have fevers, and die if that’s where it leads ~ because there’s nothing wrong with your body..you know? lol ok

Remind me again, why we bother enduring the medical assistance? Ohh yeah… its the drugs! O.o
no worries, people from other countries that don’t even pay into the system will be treated stat and be all good tho. Ok another topic to really urk anyone.. lol

Another day, at least I have some meds to last a few days longer and all will be just fine…

Sure would have been a sad day if this was an emergency situation. Thank God it wasn’t.

If I only had waited til January for the CT scan to count on my next years deductible portion- if I knew I’d be waiting on results anyway.

Oh well… going to go enjoy being temporarily pain free and symptom free on the drugs I did get from one nice doctor–while I can. The MEDICAL Industry game can sure be a pain at times.

Guess it might be time to actually contact the CA Dept. Of Insurance

Cat nap is kreeping up on me. So why fight it. I’ll rest awhile. Hope u had a fulfilling day.

Funny that that term is used when making a living will. It’s people trusting that their wishes are fulfilled. My sister, Robin, coldly tried to insist that I believe I was never comissioned by mom & dad to be their successor trustee. She believes I don’t know my parents and didn’t love them. Well, truth is—I DID. Mom & Dad did choose me to be there first successor, not Robin. According to the Legal Bowman Trust, I was honored with that position. Apparently, my siblings couldn’t allow me to experience that honor.

One month after my father’s death, my siblings caused such duress for my mom, isolated her & I with lies and ruthless jealousy issues, and took advantage of her with their manipulating overpowering abilities at a time of grief and her desire to have relationship with them that was never there–and changed the “trust”. She became totally dependent on them and felt abandoned by me because thats the nonsense they fed her. Because they didn’t respect me being there to help mom with decisions, they made it mentally impossible to keep peace. They wanted their way with Mom and mom gave into them to keep peace and have them there. She gave up her wishes to be with them. I backed off and honored Mom’s desire for them.

Yes, the first thing mom told me when we finally made peace with each other. She said to me and Russ, “They kept me drugged and made me change the will”. Wow…now things make sense.

Well, Seeing it in writing that I was given that honor– just reassures the blessings of real love my parents had for me. Its not in my mind. It wasn’t my misunderstanding. It was My honor. My heart smiles knowing that. For my siblings not to allow me to have that honor and force mom to change it–is their issue to face God over.

Only thing this whole situation has done for me is recognize my true place in my siblings lives. There is none, nor ever will be. They place value in things, rather than true family unification. Well, they’ll tell you, “No…Julie misunderstands. We love her and want to be family.” As their second face shows to me speaking cruel jealous remarks and isolation. Because if I communicate truth to them –then I’m just a problem. They see little picture that includes just themselves, can’t phathim the big picture –that includes all of us and how they affect me too.

Best answer is for me to let go, so they can live free of me.

I must show ID when:

1. Pulled over by the police.

2. Making purchases on my department store credit card.

3. When I show up for a doctor’s appointment.

4. When filling out a credit card or loan application.

5. When applying for/renewing a driver’s license or passport.

6. When applying for any kind of insurance.

7. When filling out college applications.

8. When donating blood.

9. When obtaining certain prescription drugs.

10. When making some debit purchases, especially if I’m out of state.

11. When collecting a boarding pass for airline or train travel.

I’m sure there are more instances but the point is, we citizens are required to prove who we are nearly every day.

Why should people illegally in this country be exempt? For that matter, perhaps the liberals here can answer the question as to why we shouldn’t
guard our borders as closely as every other country in the world does?

GO ARIZONA!!!!

I recall in California I have to show my ID for the following plus some also.

BEWARE OF CHRISTIANS LIKE THIS
This paragraph is the perfect example of a Christian that feels they are Holier than anyone or at least me anyway. She doesn’t even know me (She knows my siblings and Mother tho LOL) and yet has made this judgment against me. Scary to know she really believes this is a way to keep peace and unity. Good try, but its time to read it back to yourself Robin and take your advice as well. I’m praying for you to see the Truth too.

”
(1) Julie, you are a much loved and very dear sister to me. I do not, however, like or appreciate the volume and vulgarity you choose to use to communicate much of which are (2)misjudgments due to lies from Satan. (3)The Bible reminds us that our battle is not against flesh and blood, but against principalities and powers and spiritual forces in dark places. Satan is the one who comes to lie to, rob from, and kill the saints (the precious ones of Christ Jesus). In that regard, my prayers will continue for you that God will penetrate your heart and mind with His pure love, that (4)He will release you from the sins holds you in bondage. Then, you will see the truth and surrender your will fully to our Father. When you do, (and I hope that will be very soon) know that my arms are open to you. They have been always; they will be always. I cannot speak for our brothers and sister and mother. But, knowing their deep love for the Lord, I am assured that they too desire a good and loving relationship with you.”

TRANSLATION for THE NORMAL PERSON:
(This is what I hear from the above paragraph:)

1. I love you…. but I don’t like how you communicate. Why? Because its not exactly how she feels it should be done. I speak loudly and you bet I fight back when you are wrong and not just. So basically do things her way or she refuses to communicate and don’t forget YOU are the Liar all the time because anything you say is satanically influenced.
Scary… Robin I am a Christ follower just so you know. Your perspectives of me shows you don’t know me at all. Not communicating is not Love. Communication comes in many forms and who said arguments are BAD anyway? You? People disagree and you have to be willing to understand others points of view and weigh out and accept the reality. Gotta see the BIG picture.

2. Misjudgments of what? The fact that she was actually heard in front of my face talking bad about me in front of siblings. Which caused drama instead of dealing with the situation at hand. Confirming Mom’s wishes was the only answer to the disagreement at the funeral. Not stopping me from asking Mom and dramatizing that now I’m a problem for confirming Mom’s wishes. Hmm, you tell me, someone that can smile, hug, and pretend they care yet back-bites you behind your back and doesn’t think twice about how this affects you…what is that? As far as siblings & mom go.. there is no misjudgements when you are told to your face that you were Dad’s favorite, you never had a relationship with them, you are the problem all the time in their opinion even when their problems were caused by their non-relationship with our parents, ok that’s quite clear to even a moron. I see the WHOLE Picture not just the parts you want to see. So whose making misjudgments? Who’d want to be around people like this playing mind games instead of being real anyway? Not me.

3. Yes, God’s Word is true and the verse shared is the truth even in this situation. Thanks for the prayers…please pray for yourself to see the whole truth and accept the reality of it too.

4. So because she feels I’m in bondage of sin, (Of what? Getting Mad at your injustice, hatred, and jealousies towards me) I must surrender to the Lord FULLY and do things her way because she’s the perfect person that knows all things. Ok sounds harsh, but that’s how it comes across. Thing is… she doesn’t know me. Doesn’t know the life I have with Jesus and have surrendered fully to the Lord and know his mercies and grace. I know my parents too. Does this make her feel…Godly…for projecting this on me?

Clincher is… Mom is so emotionally distraught that she can only process what she is told by my siblings. In their bitterness towards me, they can’t see the REAL person I am and have rejected me completely and cruelly…with smiles on their faces and fake open arms. Crazy stuff. Only because mom now chooses to forget who I am and what I have been to her and has chosen to be manipulated and not stand up to them…. do I back off and let them rule the roost the way Dad knew they would do. Their way…isn’t Dad and Mom’s true wishes. I pray Mom gets the care she needs and I can only hope the siblings will step up for her when they chose not to ever before.

Here’s the cold hard facts:
Mom and Dad had chosen me to be their voice on their Health Directives and Will. Robin and Siblings don’t want to hear my voice representing our parents because they feel they should have been chosen to do the job or feel they could do things better. So in mom’s weakened state, the siblings have decided to completely disregard any opinion I share about Mom & Dad’s wishes and have poisoned my mother with their twisted perspective of me to attain their wishes not our parents. Yes, being who I am, a person that gets MAD at injustice, my anger gets the best of me–which any normal human being would if treated this way. So I have chosen to back off and not be a part of their ways. Amazes me how they are fake and hide behind their smiles and twists of the truth to justify what they do.
Who’d want to be a part of fakeness any way? Not me.

Yes, it hurts deeply to face the truth of our lives full on, but it is what it is.
We’ve all known it deep inside things were this way, but never faced it. I’m glad the truth has finally been revealed to me from each of them. I can accept it and choose to move on. The Lord doesn’t expect us to live in mental torment all our lives either. My siblings and Mother have pretty much died to me along with the Father I loved deeply.

Farewell fantasy family. I will miss the fantasy that I had sisters and brothers that loved me and that I loved. I just wish they could put themselves in my shoes to know how much I deeply loved them and can’t comprehend how they’ve hated me all these years beneath the fake smiles and hugs. I can’t comprehend what I’ve ever done to hurt you. I’m sorry if you feel I have done something, but without knowing what I’ve done there’s nothing I can do. I will not live under your mental tyranny as if I’m a horrible person to you–when I’ve done nothing to you. I do not accept blame for what Mom and Dad have done to you. I do not accept your blame for whatever because I cherished Dad’s love and He cherished me and my family either. Goodbye!

As God is at work in our lives, we may see only a brushstroke here or a dash of color there and say, “Wait. What is this? I don’t know if I agree.” We need to step back and give God room.
There will be an expected end. There will be a completion. And ultimately, it will be good. God had a future for Paul, and God has a future for you. And in that final day, Jesus is not going to say, “Well done, good and successful servant.” He will say, “Well done, good and faithful servant.” So be faithful.

Beware of & Stay away from Fake people that have two faces. If you discover some, run before they torture the life out of you with their lies & perspectives

BE REAL- what you see is what you get with no mind games kind of person.

Life is too short to pretend you are family when you aren’t.
Accept the truth and move on.

If you are lucky enough to have real people in your life, treasure them and cherish every moment you are blessed with.

Dad I love you and thank you for blessing me by being real. Jesus I’m hanging onto you for dear life and you alone. Help our families. In Jesus name I ask, amen.