I find life a little ironic sometimes…how one half sister (R) controls whether I meet another half sister (Kimberly) that I’ve never had a chance to meet or know since I was a baby. I wonder how R lives with herself not sharing the contact info. Is that considered a GOD Complex…LOL?

Worse part for me is R (which never got along with Kimberly – kinda like me not getting along with fake R) feels she can communicate with Kimberly and decide whether or not other siblings can contact Kimberly in the future. Of course, I feel R would not represent who I am for real to anyone, she doesn’t know me whatsoever. Her perspective is so lop-sided and messed up there’s no hope for anyone to ever want to know the real me with her inaccurate perspective. I laugh at it…cuz she’s missing out. Anyway, R & W successfully tore apart the siblings with their gossip, which is already proof enough of what they are. Personally, why fake that you care – when you don’t? I can accept how she really feels-no worries its not like she makes my world go round.

Anyway, it is what it is… if R so chooses never to share any contact info with Me for the utmost…not sure if she’s already shared the info with other siblings, then she’s proven the reality of the real her to me Again. Too funny really. Can only hope the best. Even if I get the info…not sure if I’d contact Kim anyway. I’ll be curious about her forever I guess. Wondering if we had anything in common, looked anything like each other at all, wondering just stuff about her. If she’s anything like R, maybe I wouldn’t want to meet her. All I could really offer Kim is just me anyway and the love I had for our father to share all about him with her. Every little detail of the Real Father he was not the stupid perspective of my pathetic siblings that chose to not know him or give a care that he existed.

All I know about Kimberly is an Aunt/Uncle that I have no contact with…has and gave my sister the information when Dad/Mom died. I’m sure its public knowledge… not sure how to pursue it. When my Dad’s 1st wife, Sharon Something (don’t know her last name now), divorced him for another man, eventually Kim was adopted by the new man in her mom’s life. I have no clue what their names are, nor what Kimberly’s last name would have been or is today.

Anyway, just another day wondering about the sister I may never get to know. If you Know Kimberly, my half sister, feel free to let her know I’d love to just meet her some day. Yeah, I’m me. I say what I feel and deeply feel what I say. I don’t hide behind others, gossip, or bs. I’m straightforward and willing to communicate, until something is understood and clear. I’m like my Daddy and proud of it.